The bends and turns * the rough rapids * the slow gentle flow * the undercurrent * the wild and the tame * it's all here, come and listen.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Melt down then get it together...
Last night I threw my hands up in the air, declared, "I'm taking a bath", went into the bathroom turned on the water and proceeded to bawl like a baby. Because I'm tired. Everything hurts. It's overwhelming. I can't even keep up with my own schedule at this point, and it's all down hill from her until well after the baby is born. I've been hitting a wall around 5 pm, I am on the go all day long, keeping up with what needs to be done for the most part, but by evening I am burnt out and sore and I just want to be done, but there is always so much more that is left undone no matter how I wore myself out during the day. My belly is huge, I can't get around like normal, my feet ache, my back aches, I can't sleep right, it goes on and on. So I cried. Because I needed a good cry, even if there wasn't a specific reason. Even if it was just a pregnant melt down. I'm perpetually exhausted right now, and I'm like a little child that way, when I'm too tired I just need a good long cry about nothing, or everything, which ever way you want to look at it. I finished up my short bath as my sobs melted away, got out and went straight back to doing what needed to be done. Because we all know that just because we don't want to do it doesn't mean it goes away, and I don't know about you but when I put things off they just pile up and it gets worse and worse, right?! A good hard cry is sometimes just what I need to keep going. Melt down in the shower (it was a bath last night because that's how tired I am I didn't even want to stand up) and then get it together and get back to work, that's my mode of operation. What do you do when things get too overwhelming?
I have a seperate blog now for me to journal about Atty's health issues. If you want to check it out Click Here. I am going to be keeping this as our family blog and updating issues with Atty on the other blog from now on.
Mommy Riah, also known as Miriah :)
~ Children are the living messages we send to a time we will not see. ~
We are all on this journey together...
My husband, Ryder
The love of my life, caring, passionate, intelligent, introverted, Mr. fix it, hard worker.
~The family is one of natures masterpieces~
and ~Childhood is the most beautiful of all life's seasons.~
My first born son, wise, protective, sassy, comical, perfectionist, snuggle bug.
My heart child, wild, curious, adventurous, loving, sensitive, fiery spirit
My littlest boy, mischievous, silly, independent, smart, tough guy, sweetheart.
My beautiul baby girl, charming, happy, strong, funny, sassy, chatterbox.
~Our brothers and sisters are there with us from the dawn of our personal stories to the inevitable dusk.~
and then there is J-bird...always on my mind.
Click on the picture to learn more about my first baby.
Busy homeschooling mom to four amazing kiddos. I met my husband when I was fifteen. It's been a long road with lots of ups and downs and I am so glad we have stayed on this path together to enjoy this adventure. I am so lucky to be married to my best friend and the love of my life. I never imagined my life could be so full, and wonderful, I am truly blessed! Never a dull moment...