Well I have been through a wide range of emotions the past few days, and now I am at a loss as to how I should be feeling.
Friday I took a pregnancy test, the line kind, and it said negative. Sunday I took one in the morning, the kind that says pregnant or not pregnant, and it said pregnant. Then I took another one that afternoon and it said not pregnant. Then the next morning, not pregnant. Then I bought the line kind again and took one Tuesday and there was the faintest second line, like you almost had to use your imagination faint. I took one first thing this morning which is suppose to be the best time to take one, and I got the same result, the faintest almost not there second line. Last month I got my period on either the 27th or the 28th, I think, so if I am getting it is should be here any day now. I have one more test and I am going to try and wait until the end of this month and if I still don't have my period, I will take that test. Except I am obsessive, if you can tell, and I'm probably going to take it tomorrow morning, because I can't help myself.
Don't you think if I was pregnant I would be getting a more positive result from the tests as the days go by. It makes no sense. I know it is early to be testing, but I knew I was pregnant right away with Spike, and I took a test 19 days after conception, and got a positive result, and I feel the same way this time around. Spike was born exactly 9 months after conception, to the day! Maybe I was pregnant, but it's not going to work this time around. I know this kind of stuff happens for a reasons, but I really wish now that I hadn't taken any tests and never got that positive result. That's the one that is driving me crazy.
I have to figure out something to take my mind off of this, any suggestions?
Beauty for Ashes
7 hours ago