Sucks

Yesterday I deleted all of my pictures off of my camera on accident. Every picture of Ira's second birthday. His family birthday celebration, his birthday party, every single one. There was only one other camera at the party and they only took a few pictures. That is all I will have of my baby boys second birthday. I always make them special birthday pancakes that are shaped like the number of how old they are and a heart and then they get there picture taken with them in the morning and I lost those too. Every single one. My camera was full of pictures that I was just getting ready to download. It had beautiful pictures of the date that my hubby and I went on to the beach for our anniversary. We hadn't been out together in, I don't even know how long, and it was wonderful and of course I have those memories. But pictures mean a lot to me also if you haven't noticed and I am so sad that I lost those pictures too. Belly pictures. Pictures of another hike we went on. Every single one. I don't think I really even want to know all the pictures that I lost, the camera was full. I bawled. Like a baby. I had to go hide in my room, and cry my eyes out while my husband watched the kids. Then I cried every timed I talked about it all day long. Good grief I'm crying right now, this sucks...I'm such an idiot. I can not believe I did such a stupid thing...yes I can...but it still sucks. (sucks is such an annoying word)