Wednesday, October 14, 2009

rough patch

My house is a mess. My boys are a handful and then some. I've had one shower and one bath in the last 8 days. I'm tired. I'm sore. I'm edgy and grumpy. My husband had to go back to work on Monday and since I don't like asking people for help, I'm on my own. I managed to do one load of dishes on Monday, nothing on Tuesday, and although my house is falling apart at the seams it's not looking like I have the will to clean today either. My house has never been this messy, and it is driving me crazy, but just adjusting to four kids four and under and the demands of an (extremely sweet and calm) infant is wearing me thin. Seriously if my little strawberry wasn't the angel that she has been I might have had a total melt down by now, but so far I'm still hanging in there. Maybe I should focus on what I have done.
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I have pushed out a big beautiful baby girl, that was no easy task! I've managed to only freak out on my husband one time in the past week. I've done pretty good at over looking the little stuff that usually drives me crazy (sort of) or at least not addressing it right now. I've managed to feed and cloth and even give my boys a bath this week. I took them all to the library yesterday when we had hit a wall and it was going to get real ugly if we didn't get out. I managed to get them all in and then back out of the library with out much fuss and we even stopped at a park for a bit on the way home. I've managed to spend one on one time with all my boys during the past week to remind them of how special they are to me, and to try to make up for all my grumpy in between.
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I know this overwhelming part only lasts so long. I know I will be feeling better soon and life will flow the way it is suppose to. I know that I just need to tuck my head down and force my way though this rough patch...but...that knowledge is not making me feel better right now. I'm thinking it might be a crying in the shower sort of day, if I could even take a shower.

3 comments:

Brittany said...

you JUST had a baby sweetie! I remember when I first had Aidyn, I literaly did nothing but take care of him, and my body felt miserable. I couldn't imagine having to take care of a household and three other children at the same time! You are a miracle worker! I admire you so much! Just make sure you take care of yourself. If you dont, there is no way you can take care of your four beautiful children! The best way to make them happy is if you are too! :) Make time for Mommy time!!! A nice bath would be nice!!! Wish I could come clean your house!!!!

Lisa said...

This too shall pass, my friend! I must say, I don't know if you thought of it when you titled this post, but a rough "patch" when refering to life with a new little strawberry was sort of a really cute play on words. :)Strawberry Patch....maybe it was just me. :)

smiles4u said...

Just remember all these things around you will still be there next week and the next and the next...remember those things wait but children don't. Taking care of yourself now will enable you to do all that needs to get done eventually. Hang in there and enjoy the blessings that surround you!