Thursday, September 24, 2009

The days are all a blur...


I just noticed my counter says 17 days left to go and I got a little freaked out! That is according to my latest possible due date too, my other one is Oct. 1st, yikes!! I've already passed my earliest due date of Sept. 21st...and yes I ended up with three different due dates this time around. One from my midwife, one from my first ultrasound and another from my second ultrasound. My official one is Oct. 11th, the one that my midwife and I agreed on, so we will just have to wait and see! My husband and I have had a feeling since almost the beginning that our baby girl will be born around the 4th or 5th of October, but I will try not to get my hopes up because Spike was born a week after his due date! I seriously won't last that long. I am so sore this time around, everything is hurting and I am beyond exhausted all day long. Pushing myself to keep going and care about the day to day stuff when I really just want to sit around and think about baby. I feel like I've had barely a moment to enjoy this last pregnancy or connect with the baby girl inside me and it's hard not to get a bit sad about it. Although at this point I'd rather not be pregnant anymore, I want to see her so bad! I just want this part to be over, the stress, the worry, the unknown. I am trying my hardest to get myself in the right frame of mind, but I don't know how long I can last. Come On Baby, we are more then ready for you, I promise.