Monday, April 12, 2010

~When I borrow time~

Because I have decided that in my spare time (ha!) I should rip up my front yard and landscape it. (With both beautiful plants/flower and yummy edibles.)Everything else tends to fall apart.
When I borrow time for things that I want to do I either have to deal with that little fact of life and get over it, or never work on extra projects. I can't stop gardening, that's just too sad. I love gardening it makes me feel so at peace. I pray. I dream. I breath. I relax. Or if I'm angry/stressed/sad, I work really hard and wear myself out which feels good too. But I ran out of space for planting so I need to make more. That means...the lawn is gone. Because of the time I took to work outside today (when I wasn't taking care of my kids) my house fell apart. So tonight as I made dinner I was trying not to stress out about it. Like I always tell the kids, you have to deal with the consequences of your choose wisely. I'm not sure if in this case I chose wisely or not, I guess it's all in the perspective. But I do know that it means... I need to be okay with the kid on the floor in the kitchen (he follows me everywhere).
I need to have patience with the fussy baby that wants me to hold her while I am trying to cook.
I have to NoT freak out about the dishes that need to be put away and the mountain of dishes that still need to be washed.
I need to get dinner on the table in a timely manner with my arms still full of baby and with out tripping on the adorable little red head still laying on the kitchen floor.
I need to pause and gaze at the flowers from my garden that are brightening up my dinning room table, always helps my mood.
(Bubu picked the 'Daisy Lion' for me...from the lawn...not the garden.)
Which is necessary when you have laundry piled up on the couch like this. Yikes. Boys quietly watching a movie after a bath while I make dinner is always nice. They worked so hard outside helping me that after dinner they went into their room and were asleep before I could even tuck them in! That is unheard of around here.
Oh and even the dog needs a bath, the chores are piling up all over the place.
But I got some fresh air, and I dreamed a little and I got an awesome tree to plant and we all worked together and it was nice. I'll clean tomorrow. Maybe. If it rains. ;) Other wise the garden might be calling my name again...


Lisa said...

Beautiful post. :) You amaze me Mariah, you really do. :) You are so strong. I only have one 2 year old to watch all day, (while the other two are in school, although, they are big kids, and don't really NEED mom much anymore), and I can't seem to get a grip on him, my school work, housework, and then NO work for my husband. If I loved gardening so much as you do, I can see how healing it must be. So, I'll take looking at your garden and flowers, and your progress, and try and find peace that someone, somewhere, is receiving healing. Good luck on your front yard, can't wait to see the results!!

Brittany said...

:) I think planting things is good for the soul. You need some of that! Keep it up mama!

I want to see the results when you're done!

Kat said...

You are a smart mama. The dishes/laundry/chores can always be done another day. Preferably a rainy day. ;)

How exciting to be riping up your yard. Seriously! I love doing stuff like that. :)