~I~

I... Love to run fast and then ride my shopping cart to the car {and my children do too}.

I... Always say a prayer in my head when an emergency vehicle goes by, intended for where ever, who ever, it is headed for.

I... Almost always cry about deep thought while on road trips, it's my time to ponder and sometimes grieve.

I... Love traditions.

I... Hate cleaning the kitchen/doing dishes... oh and laundry... hate it.

I... Can hardly sleep if my husband is not in the bed {or at least in the house} with me.

I... Always sleep with the sheet up over my ears. Always. And my feet covered.

I... Am still afraid of the dark.

I... Have a hard time being okay with my body.

I... Tend to be outwardly pragmatic and inwardly an idealist... I confuse myself.

I... LOVE researching, in a super nerdy way. If something peaks my interests I will research the heck out of it.

I... Read more non-fiction then fiction, because I love learning about things. Right now I'm really interested in the history of American women. Before that I was really into homeopathic medicine and herbal healing, and before that into healing foods and diets.

I... Believe whole heartedly in natural health care and eating foods that heal, in preventive care and being responsible for and informed about your own body, and how to stay healthy.

I... Wish I had what it takes to be a midwife, but sadly I don't.

I... Freakishly check every door, and every window, every night before bed... even when I know the door is locked I will still walk over to the door and touch the lock... weird I know. I won't be able to sleep other wise. I've tried.

I... Am eclectic in everything I do, from homeschooling to decorating to clothes... everything. Some times I drive myself crazy because I can never just go with one theme.

I... Wish I was craftier. Or in actuality I wish I had more time to be crafty.

I... Love the out doors, mostly in the summer, although all the seasons have their fun.

I... Wish I was a race car driver... I fantasize often on how fantastic that would be. I hope to some day drive a real race car and race really, really fast around a track some where. I some times like to punch my mini van up to the speed limit {I usually stop there any ways} really fast so that I can pretend. {when I'm alone that is...}

I... Some day want to own a Chevy Nova again like I did when I was a teen... a really nice one. :) And yes I probably will speed a bit. Oops.

I... Sometimes {often} want to be a rebel. It's a hard thing to keep under wraps, haha!

I... Share my husbands dream of some day owning motorcycles {and learning how to ride one, ha!} and then going on long road trip through the country on a nice summer day. :) It sounds exhilarating to me!

I... Desperately want to live in the country on a nice big piece of land, preferably with a creek running though it, back right up next to some foot hills in a house we built together.

I... Would love to start riding horses again, and even own one again some day. I use to dream of racing horses and would fancy myself riding the World Famous Suicide Race in Omak, Washington. I though it was fantastically daring. Still do. But a regular walk in the woods is about all I will be able to do by the time I ever get back on a horse {although I always preferred a full out gallop, I'm thinking it wouldn't go so well now}.

I... Often have a hard time expressing how I truly feel, even though people tend to thing I'm a straight shooter. I tend to be straight forward about situations happening around me, but not about myself personally.

I... Love to sing... but shouldn't ;)

I... Love to dance... but shouldn't ;)

I... Hate being wrong. It drives me crazy. I try really hard to never be wrong. I also hate making mistakes which has honestly really held me back in life.

I... Wish I was brave enough to wear leopard print. I've been brave enough to wear fuzzy leopard print pjs and slippers, but I wish I was brave enough to go out in it.

I... Am really messy if I don't have a reason to be clean. Which is why it's good that I run an in home daycare... other wise my house would be falling apart. Although I might be able to do more fun things if I wasn't always... and I mean always... cleaning.

I... Dream of someday being a naturopathic nutritionist.

I... Love to organize, but my paper clutter is out of control. Go figure.

I... Am a control freak, it's an issue for sure, that I am trying to change little by little.

I... Can't stand it when plans change... back to the control issue, haha! It can drive me to tears!

I... Am obsessed with my husband. Seriously. Good thing I married him. He is the only man I have ever loved and I really do feel that no one holds a candle to him. It sometimes amazes me that I'm still madly in love... {most days, haha!}

I... Feel better in large crowds where I can easily slip away, verses small groups where I feel trapped. I know it doesn't make sense for most people with anxiety. I'm not saying I like large crowd but if I have to pick between the two I'll go for the bigger one any day.

I... Don't like being the focus of attention, my heart speeds up, my face turns red, I want to run away... For example, it does not make me feel special to have a whole restaurant sing happy birthday to me, in fact it makes me want to cry. Don't do it.

I... Don't do well with being woken up at night, especially if I'm really tired... I don't normally swear, but I will in the middle of the night. oh and I'm not a morning person. At all. I need a moment, give it to me if you know what's good for you. After I've had a moment to adjust I'm good to go.

I... Wish I was better at playing with my kids. I like crafting with them, going on walks, exploring, trying new things, going on road trips and outings, camping, watching a movies with them, snuggling up with books... but when it comes to just playing with them I'm not very good at it. Good thing they have plenty of siblings to play with.

I... Wish we had a Jacuzzi Whirlpool tub, I would live in that thing... if I could.

I... Love projects, ask my husband.

I... Can't stand having nothing to do, I like to stay busy. Which is a good thing since I have four kids.

I... Love oriental food... and margaritas... preferably at the same time. I told you I'm eclectic.

I... Am a list maker, and I like adding things to my list that I can easily cross off along with the hard stuff. I will sometime put things on my daily list that I have already done just so I can cross it off, haha!

I... Tend to "swim against the current" in almost everything I do, but I tend to keep it private. No bumper sticker declarations on my van. :)

I... Am a bit of a snoop. Probably because I want to know everything and I hate surprises. Well not all surprises... most. I've learned that some things are better as surprises, like presents. When I was a kid I ruin a many great surprise presents with my snooping.

I... Desperately want our family to stay close. My biggest fear is of my kids growing up and moving far away. It makes me tear up just thinking about it. I want to have the kind of family like the show Parenthood... well not exactly, just the over all closeness of it. That show makes me cry almost every single time, and laugh. It's great. Even my husband watches it with me, but I don't think I'm suppose to tell anyone that, ha!

I... Am a lefty and proud of it, I'll let you dwell on whether I mean left handed, or politically, haha! {or both?}

I... Am sure that I could go on and on with this post. But I now need to go live my life. We are all unique but similar in many ways... being human is so fascinating.

I... Suggest you do an I post, it's fun. :)