Pondering

In my minds eye my children will always be babies. I think it's that way for lots of mothers. I can remember getting frustrated with my mom for treating me like a baby. I can remember thinking what is wrong with her can't she see how grown I am? Then I had my first born son and I can remember my mom saying that it was weird to see her baby with a baby and I thought, oh come on! This is getting ridiculous, I'm grown now, sheesh! Just today it hit me when I was waking J up. He looked all sleepy and peaceful and in my minds eye I was gazing at a baby J. I realized with a start how giant he is as I looked down at his feet and thought they looked about as big as he was when he was an infant. How grown he has become, while I've been keeping him tucked away in my mind as that chubby little cubby with the curl on the top of his head. Then I wandered out into the kitchen and gazed out the window at my boys and tears came to my eyes as it hit me. They will always be my babies. That's just how it is. It's hard to even imagine but some day my girl might call me and tell me she's having a baby...and I know at that moment I will think "That's not possible because you're still a baby".

~I'll love you forever

I'll like you for always

as long as I'm living

my baby you'll be. ~

Robert Munsch