Mushy brain

I think posting while pregnant might be dangerous.

My brain is mush, and I can't get a single thing to formulate in their that makes any sense right now. I try, but it makes me tired and then I just start daydreaming about taking a nap.

It starts out well and then it's all...bla, bla, bla, I feel sick, bla, bla, bla, I'm exhausted, bla, bla, bla...and who wants to hear that over and over again.

So if you hear little from me, know that my pregnant brain has gone mushy and may or may not be back soon.

Woo Hoo!

Guess what I got this last Friday?

I got a letter stating that our Home Study has been completed! Finally. So now we are entering the final stretch of this very long adventure. The adoption should be finalized soon. We have to get an attorney, and set a court date, and come up with some (lots) of money we don't have, but it will all be worth it as soon as we can put this part behind us and move on into our lives.

When I opened the letter I was half expecting to read something frustrating, something about some other form they needed or something that we needed to redo, so when I read that the Home Study was complete I shouting in joy and starting reading it out loud to my hubby and then I said "Woo Hoo", and Atty copied me! It was super funny. He was all excited too, we all were, we jumped around the house and cheered, the kids were really cute. Of course they didn't really know what's was going on, they just knew whatever it was called for a celebration.

It sure did.

Nemo touched the Butt...

Just in case any of you needed a good giggle I thought I would post for the second time today to let you know this.

I was watching Nemo with the boys this morning and I cried, twice. Good Lord have mercy!

selective memory

I do not remember being this big already with my other two pregnancies. I am not sure if this is due to selective memory, or not, but I seriously don't think I was this big before. I already don't want to wear my jeans, and if I do I have to unbutton the top when I am sitting down. I have pulled out every big sweater/sweatshirt I own in a desperate attempt to hide the roll. It's not like I am eating a lot, I don't have to, I will still gain plenty! I hate this part were you don't look pregnant, you just look like your packing on the pounds. I keep telling myself that since this is the last time I will be pregnant that I should be enjoying every second of it, but I am so not! To top it off my husband thinks it's really funny to joke about having twins, if he says it one more time I might have to pinch him, hard...

unbitchy

So I have been trying to stay away from the keyboard while bitchy, and it's been quite a challenge. I go from 0 to bitch in the blink of an eye right now and it's a tad bit scary. Today, at least for this present moment the fog has cleared and so instead of complaining about everything under the sun, I decided to post pictures of our fun outing to the beach yesterday.

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I have been getting extremely sick and Sunday night was the worst thus far. I was miserable and Ryder had somewhere he needed to be so I was alone with the boys for a couple hours and could barely cope. I was dry heaving into a bucket, sitting on the couch, crying, and Bubu started laughing at me. Which just made me cry harder. Apparently I must have been making some very funny faces while dry heaving. I have no doubt. Then the babies were trying to take my bucket and stick their hands in it and climb all over me. I was just miserable and feeling childish and desperately wanted Ryder to come home. He brought some ginger ale home for me and that helped. He can be such a sweet heart. Don't tell him I said that though, it would ruin my reputation.

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I do better in the morning, by mid day though and on into the night I am dragging, the couch is calling my name and waves of nausea wash over me non-stop. If I get outside I do a lot better, so that is why we went to the beach. We went to the beach on Valentines day too and it was such a nice day. I forgot my camera though, which just drives me crazy. Atty decided to run into the water after a seagull, wild child. No amount of screaming could get him to stop, he wanted that bird so bad! I can't say that it was a very romantic day, but being as I am a grumpy pregnant women and we have three young boys, the chances of us having a romantic day is highly unlikely in even the best of circumstances.

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Phew, I made it through the whole post fairly unbitchy, yeah me. Now I need to go get motivated, cause I only have a few hours before my body will be so heavy I will be forced to lay in the horizontal position.

Sleep and cry...

OMGoodness, tell me anything remotely sappy and I will cry peoples...I swear I will!

I'm afraid I will be sobbing in public next, in the arms of a stranger. Which has happened twice now to a pregnant friend of mine, so it very well could happen to me. Yikes!

My kids are starting to look at me funny. My husband is scared. Even the dog is hiding. 6 more weeks to go before I will hopefully be able to get myself partial under control. I really should just hide during the first trimester and do everyone a favor, including myself. Then maybe I could sleep more. Cause that's all I want to do, sleep and cry.

My baby is an alien

Okay peoples...my hormones are all over the map, I am tired, sick, grumpy, emotional (as in insane!) seriously irritable, it's not pretty. I can cry if you look at me wrong, I am super sensitive about everything. Me + pregnancy = not pretty

Then to top it off, my youngest has Lost His Mind! I don't know if he is teething or an alien has invaded his body, but the kid...he's crazy! He is screaming "No Mommy" at me, at the top of his lungs, over and over again. Crying about everything, and struggling over the littlest things. There is no reasoning with him, or even talking in general when he is in The Zone. Obstinate as all get up, I can hardly handle it any longer. He is being mean and bossy to everyone. He is hitting. He glares at people. I don't know what happened but something has apparently gone seriously wrong with my littlest, and I am so frustrated with it. What did I do? Were did I go wrong? Or is he just evil, cause I am starting to think maybe he is just evil...