It doesn't need to be anything fancy, in fact I would prefer that it's not. We love the outdoor and all the fun you can have. Exploring. We live in a great area for exploring...when it's not raining. Scratch that we explore in the rain too. You have to if you are a true Washingtonian. It doesn't bother my kids at all, actually they might like it even more because what kid doesn't like splashing in puddles?
This particular day was magnificent though. Absolutely beautiful. As was the scenery. I love this picture of me and my boys. What a lucky mommy!
My favorite picture of the day, I managed to get us all into a picture I took myself...no easy task! Plus every one but the baby is looking at the camera!! Lala is looking down and smiling because she was trying to take Bubu's hoodie off, funny girl.
Wow, are they really all mine!?! It's so hard to believe, I never envisioned myself with four kids...ever.
Daddy's little girl.
This is such a beautiful spot and great for taking pictures. I took way to many! I drive my family crazy with the camera, but hey...you can't have to many pictures right? Right? Even my husband, who rarely takes pictures, got in on the action and took this great picture of the girl and I.
This is a great picture of daddy and his boys, going on a walk. All in their hoodies, too cute! Oh my to I love my boys...
We really enjoy looking for special rocks, Atty found one that he liked and ran to show me.
Lala found one too, and wanted to put it in her mouth, little stinker! She thought it was pretty funny to drive her mother crazy with it.
We stayed until the sun began to sink. We saw a seal and a ton of little tiny fish. We saw deer. We tried to look for bunnies, because Atty always wants to find bunnies when we go on walks, but sadly we found no bunnies. We sat on this dock and talked and stared out at the water for a really long time. Listening to the water lap against the boards, looking at the birds as they swooped down for fish, watching the sky change, and bonding together as a family.
{ This picture cracks me up. Wasn't in the mood for pictures.} Let me start with saying that I fired my midwife when I was 36 weeks along. Yes you read that right. I should have done it sooner but she was my midwife for all my children and I really cared for her. You form a bond with someone you entrust your care too, your life and the lives of your children. She is truly a wonderful person and does an amazing job and I will not talk bad about her. But for personal reasons I did not feel comfortable with her services anymore. It's complicated and I don't want to go into it on here. Midwives in general are amazing though, every women deserves a midwife. :)
I was pretty emotional on that day as you can imagine. I cried the whole hour drive home from the appointment and made my decision then. I talked with my husband when he got home and he supported me all the way. He was behind me 100% no matter what my decision was, which is a beautiful thing. I called her the next day and let her know we would not be needing her for the birth, it was one of the hardest calls I've ever made. But I knew with out a doubt it was the right one.
Two weeks later I made an appointment with a doctor in our area to be on the safe side. That way if we ended up in the ER we could call the doctor. They couldn't get me in until October 6th. Her official due date was the 15th. Although I had a feeling she'd be born around the 4th. Didn't matter though because quite frankly I wasn't going to the hospital unless absolutely necessary.
I got my team together, which included a family friend who used to be a midwife. I'd felt a huge need for a big female support group during this pregnancy. I told them all about the change of plans and they all supported me. I researched home births {which we were already planning with my prior midwife by the way} and even unassisted home births. Watched some inspirational birth videos {non-stop}. Got my herbal tinctures ready, my birth kit, prepared the bedroom, wrote down all my wishes and needs for during and after labor. Wrote down notes from my Spiritual Midwifery book by Ina May Gaskin. Which I've read during each and every pregnancy. Cried. Acknowledged the fear I'd had during the whole pregnancy about having a girl. Talked nightly about the game plan with my husband. His support meant so much to me.
Then October 4th came and sure enough by 10 pm my rushes were regular and uncomfortable enough that I called up my girls. They came right away, some with babies, in the middle of the night. All had to drive for a hour or more to get to me and most had to work the next day. They are all amazing women. I started to feel like pushing around 4 pm...then all of a sudden it stopped. Just like that. I had read about how women can regress in labor and even become undilated, and I ended up experiencing this first hand. My body just shut down, I think partly because I knew that most of my support team had to leave in the morning and I didn't want to do it with out them. As the light started to shine into the windows I sat in a chair and cried myself silly. Everyone took turns hugging and kissing me and reassuring me. My water hadn't broke so there was no worry there, but I was so tired and felt so defeated. Everyone left soon after except my good friend Iva and my mom. I spent the remainder of what ended up being a beautiful day resting and doing a little walking around on the back deck. I was continuing to have mild rushes but I could tell she was still high up and not engaged in my pelvis at all. I can remember holding onto the railing on the deck, rocking my hips with my eyes closed, sunshine on my face, begging her to come out. Tears streaming. Nothing happening. Even Iva eventually left. That night our friend/midwife called to check on me and told me to take a bath, take a little valerian tincture and go to bed. So Ryder sat with me while I did just that and it really did feel wonderful relaxing in the tub for a bit. I laid down and tried to rest but as soon as I laid down the rushes picked up. I was determined not to call anyone this time until I was certain it was the real thing. So I waited and waited and wait. I waited until I literally felt her starting to move down and things were getting hard to stay on top of. Those rushes that feel like a wave that could easily drag you under. The ones that take all your concentration to roll through and over. They were coming on regularly at this point so I woke Ryder around 9pm and told him to make the calls. Then I prayed that it was the real thing this time. It felt even more intense then the night before. It continued to be intense until around 2 am, I won't go into details but it tested my limits way more then Spikes birth, probably because it was taking so much longer! I changed positions over and over again. I was so tired but when I laid down on the bed everything would slow down and my husband would suggest switching positions so I grudgingly would and everything would pick up again. Then we hit 2 am and for a scary moment it seemed like I was shutting down again. I knew if I didn't have her soon I would run out of energy. I was exhausted beyond belief and 30 hours in. Then all of a sudden I was almost overcome with three strong rushes in a row, I could barely keep on top of them and with and audible pop my water burst. And it was go time. She came fast from that moment on. I had to force myself to NOT push and let her ease out, because I have big babies. It's necessary, trust me. She came down the birth canal so fast that her head didn't even mold, it was perfectly round. Then just like that, there she was. Our little baby girl. I could feel the love and joy in the room and it felt wonderful. I was beyond exhausted and sort of in shock that she was actually finally out! My husband assisted me through the whole thing, with the support of everyone in the room. He is my hero. She was born into her daddy's loving arms.
And then he passed her to me. My beautiful baby girl. Big round head, full lips, Rosy body, healthy sweet bundle of joy. Right after she was handed to me I started to snuggle her and then as an after thought I lifted up the blanket to check and make sure she was indeed a girl and everyone laughed through their tears. Because there wasn't a dry eye in the room. She was born at 3 am on the dot. {the clock was off in our room so we went off the clock on our camcorder.}
She ended up coming out with shoulders squared, she didn't shift like she was suppose to {stubborn baby} so one of the first things my husband said was that she was going to be the football player in the family. Pretty funny. She was another big baby although when weighed ended up being the first of my babies to weigh under ten pounds, so she seemed tiny to me.
My husband had to take a break after everything settled down {my sweet friend/midwife did all the not so fun after stuff and clean up thank goodness} so he went out to his shop and surrounded himself with his tools {and possibly drank a beer...} all us girls had a good laugh about that! He needed a little manly time. I have never been more proud of my husband then I was that night.
After we were all cleaned up we snuggled in bed until the early morning hours unable to sleep even though we were both beyond exhausted. We stared at our beautiful baby girl and talked. I felt so great, so loved, and I felt so much affection for everyone who had made the experience what it was. I loved that I didn't have to listen to beeping and noise in the halls. The hustle and bustle of the hospital. I hated my hospital stay with my first born. I loved that I didn't have to bundle into the van and go home. What I loved about Spikes birth was that I got to go home four hours after he was born {unlike the prior two day hospital stay with my first born} but I didn't like the car ride. Which is why I knew a home birth was the best match for me. And it was. That morning after we woke up I called the doctors office and let them know that I was cancelling my appointment because she was born right on the 6th, the day of my appointment. It was kind of a fun call to make. Then I was pampered in bed the whole rest of the day. And the next. As it should be.
That's my story and I'm sticking to it. At first I just told people we didn't make it to the hospital in time, but that's not true, because we never tried. I just got tired of the reactions. I felt a strong want to keep the story selfishly to myself to preserve the beauty it held for me. But I've come to realize, as this first year flew by, that no matter what her birth was beautiful to use and it was perfect for our family and it will continue to be regardless of what anyone else says.
When done correctly and safely. When you use your brain. When you stay alert and tuned into your baby. It's beautiful.
Warm and snugly. Hearts beating together. Baby breath and little sighs.
Hands free to love and hold and care for brothers. Important for a busy mommy like me. Freedom to move around while still keeping baby close.
Baby sighs, tiny movements reminisce of when they were still inside and swimming around. Closeness that makes your heart ache in a good way.
Content peacefully baby = happy mommy.
Cozy and warm, safe and secure. Having my babies near me always made it easier for me to focus on the rest of the kids, knowing the wee one was safely snuggled into mommy.
And then there are the times when I need to keep more then one baby happy. Back packs are awesome too. 
Whether they are on front or back, if you use common sense and follow direction and get lots of practice {as in the longer you wear your babies the more comfortable you are with trying different ways of wearing them} there is no reason wearing a baby should be unsafe.
In fact I think it is one of the best ways of making sure your baby is safe. Not tucked away in a baby seat or pen or crib when you need your hands free or need to move around. Right there on you, breathing with you, right before your eyes. 
Talking to them, letting them see the world from a safe place, singing softly to a fussy baby. It's amazing how fast a baby will calm down when worn gently snuggled up to their loved one. You.
I would feel it as a terrible loss if I were prevented from having these moments with my children. My husband as well...yes he's worn all of our babies a time or two!
I will miss the day that my last little one no longer fits into her sling. My hope is that other mother will always have the right to wear their babies and continue to have choices on a vast selection of baby carriers. 
She got this awesome strawberry outfit from her auntie and I just had to share...more later!!!
...Oh No...
This is a MONKEY!!
